Missed the Bus

 Have I missed the Bus ?  

Looks like my life is full of missed opportunities .

Now I understand why all of great men and women talk of Consistency . 

I had tried many things but left them in lurch .

I had started writing Blog in 2008 and now when I see that people are earning millions just by blogging.

Someone has snatched the rug right from under my feet . 

Is this the first time ?

No .

There are innumerable instances .

But none is to be blamed .

I was not consistent . May be I was not aware that it could be money spinnner.

I had started writing because I loved it .

Then lost interest .

Now when I see people minting money then I feel that I was and still am the most stupid man ever walked on this planet.

But as they say move on and Start again .

Wish me all the best !

Love .........??????

LOVE ---------- what this four letter has in it ? For me love comes with the price tag of pain . And i am talking about the love between a man and a woman not the other loves like parents love or siblings love . The love of mother and father for their children and vice versa or siblings love come naturally . These are the blood relations and you don't have to earn it , to get it , to achieve it , to toil for it ... but to get the love of a woman if you are a man and the love of a man if you are a lady ...... it is certainly a tough job just like climbing Mount Everest . To get the love of an unknown person whom you have liked in the beginning ... the reasons could be any ...... may be you are floored by beauty or may be you have liked the qualities of that person so immensely that you fall in love unknowingly...... and then the hardship begins.... the pain begins......... you make every effort to woe...... just to see the same feelings in the eyes of that human with which your eyes are filled with ........ the same reciprocation ... the same response .. but it is not easy and possible ...... you are smitten by that person's beauty or persona or qualities ..... the same could not be for that person . To get the reciprocal feelings , she or he must have also floored either by yours persona or qualities.... first your effort goes in just letting apprise the other of your emotions .... whether it is accepted or not ... it is not an ordinary feat if the other one, even if he or she does not love you but he or she values your feelings and emotions.... it gives you a feeling you can't describe in words.. To get the love in return you are blessed and is icing on the cake ... but those who get this are very few blessed and lucky ones...... but love is not all about getting love in return ..... it is about giving love ... the pain of not getting reciprocal love gets slightly subsides when the other person values your love ..... and you can live your life just with that satisfaction ...... you can be friends all along till your last breath like the two shores of a river which never meet but runs side by side all their journey till reach their ultimate destination.....

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Unquote Fawzia Gulsha "Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. "Something died inside me yesterday and it was a huge loss , an incomparable loss or a loss i can't measure in any way. And i realized the truth in those words myself practically.Why sometimes your innocence is understood like your idiot or fool ? Why sometimes when you behave like you are ignorant of some facts just to make someone happy or you don't want to give them the impression that you are well aware of the truth-- then it is considered as your weakness or foolishness.You are taken for granted .
When something dies , it becomes stale and immovable and hard . I am feeling the same way that a portion of my heart has become hard and motion less or emotionless. May be then you become less sensitive and then continue to grow as insensitive to other's pain and grief since it is the heart which has all these emotions and senses to feel and when a portion of it dies it stops reacting the way it used to . Am i going to be ruthless or harsh now ? Or i am going to be the other way around . Since when you have gone through same phase you can judge and feel the pain and grief of others .Don't know which way i am going to be . But if i know me i can be hard and ruthless to me only ......

Number 4- It's Effect on My Life

  Don't know much about numbers or numerology. But I have always felt that Number 4 has a huge and vast influence on my life. Could not notice earlier in my life but gradually I sensed that 4 has something to do with my life. My Moolaank number is 4 as per numerology. I was born on the 13th day of the calendar month which sums up to 4. My birth month is April which is the 4th month of the calendar and if I add the whole numbers of my date of birth which is 13-4-1967 it aggregates to 4.

As such, I began to notice that most of the good and bad things happen on days like 4, 13, 22,  and 31 of the month. I get good and bad news these days. I meet and lose good people and things on these days. I get surprises and shocks these days. These number of days give me joy and also pain.

Sometimes it also seems ridiculous to me and I think whosoever reads this will also think so. Maybe some will think I am superstitious which I discard completely Me Lord.:) But I cannot help it . The truth is truth. And I love this number. The number 4 is not considered as auspicious as 13 is also considered unlucky, which is my date of birth. I have always been very possessive of things attached to me .So I always love both the numbers 4 and 13 . Usually, people don't give the number 13 to anything associated with them but I always somehow get stuck with these numbers. How can these numbers be unlucky to me when I am born on these numbers day.

P.S.- I got my life term sentence on 14/04/1993. Add the numbers. The result is 4. 

THE POWER OF YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS MIND

This is the title of a book written by Dr Joseph Murphy. The author says in this book that if u want to achieve something you first get that thought deep uprooted in your subconscious mind and that you can do by telling this passive mind of yours when u go to sleep and remind it when u wake up early in the morning or you think it all day, it gets immersed in your mind . And then you can see miracles, what this subconscious mind can do . It can do wonders for you . Like what SRK says in his OSO movie that when u want something whole of universe helps you in getting that. This is one and same thing . In this book Dr Murphy has suggested that you can cure certain chronic diseases with your mind .Like many times doctors say now a patient can only survive with his will power .This will power is his subconscious mind.When u think positive na things change for better or vice- versa. So the summary is if u need something get it into your subconscious mind and you will get that. I have done this some days back and i have done what i wanted to do .That thought was so deep rooted into me that you just go thru those motions and u get what you have thought. Situations and circumstances happen automatically to give you what you have asked for. So i will try now this on other things too which i want in my life .

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Let me tell something about me. First things first. I have given indianordinary name to my blog since i am ordinary Indian.But let me tell you all that INDIA is not ordinary. When I was thinking of giving my blog some name ,you always need and think that you should have a unique and "zara hat ke" name , this name struck to me . Indian is somewhat hidden in spellings of ordinary. But to remind you again that India is not ordinary.India is now on its path to regain glory and status it once had in the world. We should pray and do what we can do to make it "SONE KI CHIDIYA " once again. She is marching ahead on its conquer world. Our enterprising businessmen are getting hold and acquiring world's companies . I love my country as much as you do despite its shortcomings. In every field one wants to get top position and be first .But for the love of my country I always want to be the last Indian in the queue. When you are last Indian out of about 120 crores population you can sleep well since she is in secure hands .Nobody can dare touch our country.When I was in my teens studying in college, there were whole lot of students always talking of cricket,girls ,movies but nothing about country.It does not mean that I dont have interest in these things .I do have .Come on yaar ! who would not have .Cricket and movies -which Indian is not crazy about . And girls which man would not be . But sometimes you have to think about your country also.But nobody was interested .Then somehow I began to realize that what is going on .What would happen to this country. I used to cry and still I always start crying whenever I see a movie like Upkaar, Shaheed .When I saw these movies ,I always noticed that nothing was happening around me . May be i am too sensitive or sentimental.But as I was getting matured I began to realize that there were whole lot of people like me. People more in love with India than me .more concerned about the issues she is facing than me ,more patriotic than me . So I am proud and happy to be the last person in this queue and I hope every Indian should wish so . We should love our country despite its broken roads, pollution , poverty etc.We should realize that we are recognized by the identity given by this country to us as we are recognized in the society by the names given by our parents. Likewise , we always say our county as our motherland "Grand Parent". Many many and a whole lot of things to say . But I am not a poet or writer or scholar.I am a man of few words and does not have that extra sense or quality of poet and writers. JAI HIND AND VANDEMATRAM to all my fellow Indians. indianordinary.