Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Love .........??????

LOVE ---------- what this four letter has in it ? For me love comes with the price tag of pain . And i am talking about the love between a man and a woman not the other loves like parents love or siblings love . The love of mother and father for their children and vice versa or siblings love come naturally . These are the blood relations and you don't have to earn it , to get it , to achieve it , to toil for it ... but to get the love of a woman if you are a man and the love of a man if you are a lady ...... it is certainly a tough job just like climbing Mount Everest . To get the love of an unknown person whom you have liked in the beginning ... the reasons could be any ...... may be you are floored by beauty or may be you have liked the qualities of that person so immensely that you fall in love unknowingly...... and then the hardship begins.... the pain begins......... you make every effort to woe...... just to see the same feelings in the eyes of that human with which your eyes are filled with ........ the same reciprocation ... the same response .. but it is not easy and possible ...... you are smitten by that person's beauty or persona or qualities ..... the same could not be for that person . To get the reciprocal feelings , she or he must have also floored either by yours persona or qualities.... first your effort goes in just letting apprise the other of your emotions .... whether it is accepted or not ... it is not an ordinary feat if the other one, even if he or she does not love you but he or she values your feelings and emotions.... it gives you a feeling you can't describe in words.. To get the love in return you are blessed and is icing on the cake ... but those who get this are very few blessed and lucky ones...... but love is not all about getting love in return ..... it is about giving love ... the pain of not getting reciprocal love gets slightly subsides when the other person values your love ..... and you can live your life just with that satisfaction ...... you can be friends all along till your last breath like the two shores of a river which never meet but runs side by side all their journey till reach their ultimate destination.....

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Indianordinary-2

Unquote Fawzia Gulsha "Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. "Something died inside me yesterday and it was a huge loss , an incomparable loss or a loss i can't measure in any way. And i realized the truth in those words myself practically.Why sometimes your innocence is understood like your idiot or fool ? Why sometimes when you behave like you are ignorant of some facts just to make someone happy or you don't want to give them the impression that you are well aware of the truth-- then it is considered as your weakness or foolishness.You are taken for granted .
When something dies , it becomes stale and immovable and hard . I am feeling the same way that a portion of my heart has become hard and motion less or emotionless. May be then you become less sensitive and then continue to grow as insensitive to other's pain and grief since it is the heart which has all these emotions and senses to feel and when a portion of it dies it stops reacting the way it used to . Am i going to be ruthless or harsh now ? Or i am going to be the other way around . Since when you have gone through same phase you can judge and feel the pain and grief of others .Don't know which way i am going to be . But if i know me i can be hard and ruthless to me only ......